Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Tryin' to get the feeling again.

I took a comp day today.

I liked it.

I ran a few errands. I spent $40 (Forty! Dollars!) on two (TWO!) hopefully indestructible dog toys and watched Lil' Frankfurter wear himself out. I got a massage. I watched three episodes of Grey's Anatomy.

I want to do it all again tomorrow.

I am fighting burnout. I haven't been writing about it because I don't want to give it breath and legs and make it even more real. I know that in some ways, this is making it worse. I know that it's not normal to sit at your desk and want to cry. I know this.

I thought I would be fighting the urge to check my work e-mail all day. I was both relieved and horrified to realize that I didn't think about it all day. I am terrified to think about what my inbox might look like in the morning. I don't know what would be worse - for it to be overflowing or filled only with the sound of crickets. I don't want to be overwhelmed, but I also don't want to realize I'm suffering for a need that isn't there.

I'm trying to hold on to my massage hangover.

5 comments:

Cyndi B. said...

Sorry to hear you're feeling that way. I wonder if it's the time of year because not only am I not real happy, but I have a few friends that feel the same way. I say massages for everyone!

BTW...what dog toys did you buy? I'd be willing (not happy, but willing!) to spend $40 for toys that are indestructible for the crazy beagles. They destroy every toy I buy!

Hope you have a great day!

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Take care of you, Cha Cha. Get that feeling again.

hope505 said...

When I am feeling burned-out from my job, I remind myself, "Hey...it's my job. It's just what I do, not who I am..."

It'll pass, Chchita. And I'm proud of you, playing hooky for a day! Use those annual leave and sick days! You earned them, and that's what they're for!!
* : D

cndymkr / jean said...

Is it just the job or is there more going on? The weather and the lack of alot of sun aren't helping. Taking a mental health day every so often is a great way to refresh the body and mind. Of course, the massage was the best idea ever.

slow panic said...

i'm totally bored with my job and burned out. but can't quit because i'm the only income earner right now and there's two little kids in private school (i am not freaking out). so many days i find myself at my desk staring out the window and then forcing myself back to work. blech.

glad i could cheer you up.