Tuesday, June 15, 2010

My mom popped the heads off the Hungry Hungry Hippos and tried to convince us that it was more fun to play the game that way.*

I have blogger guilt. It tastes like sour milk and shame.

I haven't been writing a ton lately, and that seems to reflect me in the three-dimensional world.

When I get stressed, I tend to turn inward. All the recent craziness with layoffs at Corporate Behemoth meant that some days, I literally did come home and take to my bed. It felt very Southern Recluse in a most Tennessee Williams sort of way.

But even when really wonderful, good things are happening? Well, I tend to play it pretty close to the vest. I'm scared to jinx it. There's part of me that is prepared to be disappointed and deeply hurt. And then there's another part of me that accepts that happiness is natural and welcome and expected. And sometimes, those two parts of my personality duke it out like Rock 'em Sock 'em Robots.
Or Hungry Hungry Hippos.

Or the violent 80s toy of your choice.

But sometimes? Sometimes, I just let it be.

So now, I will tell you what's really going on, because it feels like the elephant (or hippo) sitting on my laptop.

There has been talk. About houses. And futures. And jewelry has been selected. And this weekend, parental blessing was obtained. And now I'm just sort of floating along, knowing what is coming but not knowing when or how or anything.

This all feels so easy and right.

But don't ask me about it. I don't want to jinx it.

* I think she was having one of those "You're the reason Mommy drinks" sort of days. It's cool.

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21 comments:

Molly said...

Woohoo!

Dorrie said...

I am so happy for you!

cndymkr / jean said...

YES!!

Magic27 said...

I'm so very, very happy for you and him and that thing that's going on but that we shouldn't really mention... I can't believe it, but I'm actually crying as I type this!
Congratulations, Cha Cha, you deserve this happiness! Hold on to it and don't let it go...
Best wishes from France!

Karen said...

I am so super happy for you!!!

It seems quite surreal to me too, that while in the midst of layoffs and wondering about my job that my personal future is just getting better. All I can do is have some faith that everything will work out.

Enjoy it!

jolt said...

omigod that is amazing news!!! I'm so happy for you!

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

OMG! OMG! OMG! I have chills! SO SO SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!

And your post title had me TOTALLY clueless until the end. Nice.

drawer queen said...

eyes averted, barely contained words of excitement and congratulations and swelling sense of utter joy for you.....um, so have a great day.

Cyndi B. said...

WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!
(quietly in my chair at work)!!

going outside to jump up and down!!

I agree with Magic...you deserve this happiness!

dallasdiva said...

AUUUGGGHHHHH Hooray for ChaCha!!! You totally deserve greatness and happiness and jewels!!!!

Iron Needles said...

Very, very cool. There's just nothing else to say.

mel said...

Hooray and yay and how very exciting! I have chills running down my arms.

So cool. Just enjoy not knowing and happiness.

hope505 said...

right ON, cha cha!!

Laura said...

Yay Cha Cha!

Sarahviz said...

*squee!*

sherilee said...

That is simply marvelous news!

Beth said...

That's the best news I've heard all day. Wooooo!!!!!

Banjo @ Unfabulousness said...

SOOOO happy for you! Enjoy every moment of bliss!

Rachael said...

OMG, congratulations.... I recently discovered your blog and have spent several days reading your archives... you rock and you make me happy! Now I am even happier! You deserve all the happiness in the world... and it sounds like you're getting it!

slow panic said...

huge congrats. so happy for you

Melina said...

Wonderful!!! And, SO not what I expected to read based on your title. Awesome, awesome title!