Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
Or something like that. It's Monday, and I'm not at work. Because I don't have a job anymore. Instead, I'm at a coffee shop - not because I'm a coffee drinker, but because I was really uncomfortable with the idea of not having anywhere I had to be. So, I loaded up my messenger bag and walked to my neighborhood coffee shop. You know, the one that has no sidewalks because all the neighbors drive their Suburbans to get there, even though it's less than a mile away.
Yeah. It was sort of like Sir Edmund Hilary's trek up Everest. Except not quite as cold, and without a Sherpa.
Today, all of my former cohorts at Corporate Behemoth are being bussed (bussed! in expensive charter buses!) to a hotel to learn from our CEO that insurance and 401K funding is being cut. They are truly being punished for sticking around.
I know that I'm so fortunate to have had my severance approved. I'm so fortunate that this was financially feasible for me and My Guy. And yet? Mentally, I am still at Corporate Behemoth.
The family that started the company basically now has nothing to do with it. When I look at what the sharks have done to the company and its loyal employees, I am indignant on the family's behalf.
I'm a little bit insulted that Corporate Behemoth shut off e-mail and badge access right at 5:00 on Friday for those of us taking severance. Don't let the door hit you on the way out.
I guess that's fitting, considering that we became invisible during our last 10 days. When everybody else went to a baseball game? We weren't invited. And those general team e-mails? We weren't included. Glad you valued those years of service, bitches.
I'm annoyed as all hell at our vice president, whom I have worked with for 2 years and who stopped by my desk on Friday, clearly because he felt he was supposed to, not because he wanted to. It was truly one of the most awkward exchanges of my life, culminating with him telling me, "Well, Faraway Town is a nice place to live."
"Umm? I live in Tinysuburbwood."
He just looked at me. "Oh."
What is it with people thinking that I live hell and gone away when I am desperately trying to hold on to my metro-area street cred?
Sigh.
And don't even get me started on the fact that I was basically the last person in the company to know that my position had been backfilled. And that my replacement friend was being included in meetings in my stead.
It should all just make me glad to wash my hands and start anew.
I spent last week busting my ass getting things as neatly tied up as possible. I spent the weekend listening to my sweet husband telling me to take a nap. And now?
Well ... now what?
I guess I need to give myself a break. I guess it's only natural that a touch of PTSD is coloring my very first day of unemployment.
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It's only day one. You will figure it out once your mind is clear of all the BS you are leaving behind. Take the dogs to the park. Exercise. Be good to yourself. Focus on your support system. Do something nice for Your Guy that you never had the time to do before. Free time is precious and should be savored when you have it.
When people are that horrible, you know it will bite them back someday.
Meanwhile, thank God you got out while you could and in one piece!
Maybe you'll become a tea drinker?
Enjoy your freedom. After you punch a pillow or two to let out your frustration.
It took me a year to quit being mad at my company for the same thing you are going through. Now I am only in the "ticked off" stage. It was hard adjusting to not having to go to work. When I was working I used to dream of NOT working! I guess I would have felt differently about it if I had gone out in my own terms. Work schedules are hard to break, I still find myself scheduling my day like I did before..and realized I can do my laundry any damn time I want to now ... I don't have to do my grocery shopping on the weekends or after 4:30 when I got out of work. Took me awhile to figure that all out. Best of luck. You will enjoy it after you quit being mad or just ticked off!
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