Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Happiness requires courage.

A weird thing has been happening for the last week.

I've been sleeping.

Like, I've been sleeping without any pharmaceutical assistance. No Advil PM. No Benadryl. No fancypants prescription. Just Cha Cha, Foxie Doxie, and a whole lot of exhaustion.

Foxie obviously has badger hunting in his ancestry, because he loves getting in a burrow. And by "in a burrow," I mean "underneath any sort of fabric." The bed is his natural habitat, and I love to listen to his little snorts of satisfaction. For Foxie, all this time sleeping is a dream come true.

For me, it's a dream come true as well. I'm starting to appreciate that I spent a year and a half trying to operate at someone else's speed, a speed that is waaaaaaaaaay different than mine. And I'm fucking tired, you know?

But mostly, I'm finding comfort and I'm happy, and so I'm sleeping.

Today Dorothy commented that I seem much happier since I'm not being told on a daily basis the myriad of things that are wrong with me.

She's got a point.

I'm just alright, you know?

I must admit, though, that I worry about this blog. Being in crisis provides an endless array of writing topics. Having a mental breakdown at Walgreens? Being stalked by your Ex-Ex? Oh, yeah. I got your blog fodder right here.

But being happy and settled means you write about ... what? Rainbows? Unicorns? Help a sister out. I want to continue to be honest and engaging, but without every post being about grilled cheese sandwiches and knitting.

Although I do love grilled cheese sandwiches and knitting.

But putting this in writing is probably the kiss of death. I'll find out that much like an insurance co-pay, a Shit Quota starts over at the beginning of the year and I will have drama galore.

But probably not. I'm due. I just hope I still have something worthwhile to write about.


LaDue & Crew said...

Girl!! You are far more interesting than just the shit that happens in your life!! And if one day happens to be about grilled cheese, then it'll be the best damn grilled cheese ever! Just let it roll, girl...

LaDue & Crew said...

You know, it's been awhile since we've heard anything about Corporate Behemoth... gotta be some juicy shiz goin' on down there...

itsjustme said...

I am always amazed and impressed with the weird things in the world that I find to write about. Admittedly, sometimes I'm the only one that thinks I'm funny, but I am ok with that. Worst comes to worst, you could buy a fish tank and write about the guppies. (Kidding You gotta wonder - luv you)

You so funny no matta what!

Rebecca said...

First let me tell you how much I LOVE the title of your post. So true. In fact, I think I'm gonna have to steal it and put it on my newly created (or will be created soon) favorite quotes and sayings section. LOVE IT.

Second, don't be crazy. There is a lot of inspiration in writing about being happy or even content. I personally love to read about people's discovery of happiness, whether it's knitting or the simple act of making a delicious meal. It inspires people and lets them know that life is about simple joys.

So go ahead and write about sleep and anything else that has made you feel whole and happy.

hope505 said...

..And ultimately...this is for you, not for "us". It isn't just negativity and sorrow that makes us tune in to see what's up.
* : )
Personally, I've always wanted a dachshund so I love reading about yours. And seriously, just thinking the word "Krampus" still cracks me up...christmas will come again and I'll think of 'krampus the christmas frog' and have a giggle. Don't even worry about having to entertain anyone, dig?

And your word verification for this comment is "PUCCI" - as a fashion-loving individual, that made my day right there. *haha!* See? And you didn't even try!

Anonymous said...

I am happy to read you are sleeping well! And I'm totally cool with grilled cheese and knitting as a topic if that means all is calm in Noodleroux World!

you gotta wonder said...

Two thoughts: 1) I'm glad I read your comments or I wouldn't know my sister is talking smack about me and 2) I just ready your funny/creative post on a boring meeting. I have no doubt you will continue to draw us into your world. And you are certainly due a round of peace, contentment and yes...happiness.

(and the word verification for me is "podyings". I'm going to have to ponder the deeper meaning of THAT for a while)


Heidi said...

I wonder about that too sometimes - I'm feeling all reflective lately and I'm thinking at some point it will wind down and then what?

I'm glad you're sleeping. :)